I am not one to have New Year's Resolutions, start a diet plan, make off with new habits. I like the idea of a clean slate, but know myself well enough to know I won't end up sticking with lofty goals that don't seem to fit in the "normal" scheme of things.
I am asking a general request of myself this year - a simple concept, but earth shatteringly world changing. I am asking myself for balance. I would like to simply enjoy the present more, knowing that with enjoying the present often comes organization for the future. I would like to be. Enjoy my children when I'm with them, be productive at the work when working, clean efficiently when cleaning, exercise with passion when exercising.
I find that I am often elsewhere wherever I happen to be.
I think this is a lifestyle change, a new mindset, but I hesitate to call it a Resolution. I just know that being overwhelmingly busy and screwing everything up is not a happy place, and I don't want to hang out there any more. I have found through this full time work experience that I have a husband who is willing and able to pitch in if I ask (and even if I don't), and that a lot of the time, it's about me not necessarily wanting to let go of the control. Slow and steady wins the race. Balance.
Here goes, 2012!